Exile To The Wind

Most days I have something to wonder about, and I enjoy having something to ponder it keeps the day moving right along to wonder and ponder as you wash dishes and sort laundry and keep up with kids.
Today I have not had much to think about. This little problem has made the day seem twice as long and very trying. It may not seem like a big deal but if your day is not quite what you planned on it can throw you off. I was slower getting the housework done, and feeling sorry for my self then I decided that in lacking any other topic I could blog about this. So here it is my entry about the nothingness in my thought and suprisingly it is very worth while to me. In the nothingness I have been thinking about I have also noticed how the topic of the day effects how my house runs, when asked about the day and when I did not have an answer those asking had suggestions. We'll have to see if we fair better in the morning.
There is a big problem but I am in a hppy mood righ now so I'll blog about that next time. When you have to look at yourself and how your living you end up very glad that there was nothing to think about. Here is what I came up with today. I am a very lucky to be married to my husband and we have a fair marriage, but we need to comunicate better, and speak about how much we value each other. I am not a great mother, but I love my kids and I want them to have goods lives and to grow up knowing what there own goals are. I am not a very great as a daughter, my parents are do not have alot to be proud of. If I would have been a better student or worked harder at my chores, then they would be proud of me no matter how my life turned out! Am I the only one who wonders about their parents think about them? Here I sit trying to out live what I did not manage to get done as a child. I want to be the kind of mother who does not leave her children feeling like this! I think that I have messed up to the point that I am sure my kids will not grow up just the way that I would like. The fact that the Hubby and I have diffrent parenting styles and after years of seeing the two fo us at each other about how to raise them and where to live and how to divide work and household work. They will be just like thousands of other kids who have to figure the world out for themsleves. I just that they grow up and meet there own goals then they will not have to live with regret like I do.