Saturday, April 29, 2006
gREAT nOW wHAT
My Husband is at work, and my children and the puppy are all asleep and tonight I feel horrid.
I was to sick to eat dinner and to sick to cook dinner for my kids so I let them have corn dogs tonight. I will regret that later on I am sure of that fact.
I do wish I had some one to talk to on the phone or to IM right now because I am very lonely. Times like these when I need people and no one is there for me are the times I regret caring so much for people and spending my time helping them no matter what they go through.
Well the doc offered me a home care nurse two times and I said no thank you because I felt just fine. Now I feel crummy and sick and I hurt all over, I wish that my Mom or one of my friends could come here and help me now!
Well as my late Grandpa W. would have said, "If wishes were fishes I would have one fried!"
If this is the end of me if GOD is saying my number is up, then he knows best and I will be able to tell my Grandpa what has happened to his beloved family since he died!
If I am ment to fight this I will put all of my effort into it and try as hard as I can.
Today I tried to wish it all away, then I noticed the same discharge from my breast and I just wanted to cry. This is uber real and I am getting scared.
I was to sick to eat dinner and to sick to cook dinner for my kids so I let them have corn dogs tonight. I will regret that later on I am sure of that fact.
I do wish I had some one to talk to on the phone or to IM right now because I am very lonely. Times like these when I need people and no one is there for me are the times I regret caring so much for people and spending my time helping them no matter what they go through.
Well the doc offered me a home care nurse two times and I said no thank you because I felt just fine. Now I feel crummy and sick and I hurt all over, I wish that my Mom or one of my friends could come here and help me now!
Well as my late Grandpa W. would have said, "If wishes were fishes I would have one fried!"
If this is the end of me if GOD is saying my number is up, then he knows best and I will be able to tell my Grandpa what has happened to his beloved family since he died!
If I am ment to fight this I will put all of my effort into it and try as hard as I can.
Today I tried to wish it all away, then I noticed the same discharge from my breast and I just wanted to cry. This is uber real and I am getting scared.
# posted by Sassy @ 10:59 PM 
