Saturday, April 01, 2006
Looking Out My Window
The view from my window has changed and I like the look of things now, outside and inside. The eyes I see the veiw with are not changed much but having a better view to look at helps more than anything else possibly could have.
Once again I have a garden growing here and no idea what will grow or how to care for it. Once again my plan is to take photographs of it with my camera to enjoy the growing blooming things around and about! The kids are looking forward to the strawberry patch again. I am rather happy that we have lavander growing because I want to bring some of it inside and enjoy the smell of it! Iwill be thrilled to have a bunch of it hauning upsidedown in my laundry room to make it smell lovely.
Looking outside of the window we have changed on the inside too. There are a few more smiles here now, and we feel more like family than room mates. The kids still have there spats, but they are kids and that is just how there are. We are going to pain a few of the rooms and settle all of the way in.
I miss my parents and my brothers, and I hope they make it for a visit again very soon. Even better than that I want to go and visit them. More than anything else I miss my Grandma. I long to be near her and to hug her again. Sometimes when I call her I feel nearer to her and other times I feel the distance with every word.
What I dream of and why I hope for things is changing as I get older, but no matter what family is the most important. As friendships come and go and mine always seem to go away, family remains there and I find comfort in that.
More and more I am able to think of people I use to be friends with, and not feel bitter or sour about the loss. I am better ad smarter for having know some people and others who I tried to be friends with were just a waste of my time. At the end of all of these friendships that have gone right I feel more comfortable in my own skin! So in this respect there is s silver lining and light at the end of this tunnle.
Once again I have a garden growing here and no idea what will grow or how to care for it. Once again my plan is to take photographs of it with my camera to enjoy the growing blooming things around and about! The kids are looking forward to the strawberry patch again. I am rather happy that we have lavander growing because I want to bring some of it inside and enjoy the smell of it! Iwill be thrilled to have a bunch of it hauning upsidedown in my laundry room to make it smell lovely.
Looking outside of the window we have changed on the inside too. There are a few more smiles here now, and we feel more like family than room mates. The kids still have there spats, but they are kids and that is just how there are. We are going to pain a few of the rooms and settle all of the way in.
I miss my parents and my brothers, and I hope they make it for a visit again very soon. Even better than that I want to go and visit them. More than anything else I miss my Grandma. I long to be near her and to hug her again. Sometimes when I call her I feel nearer to her and other times I feel the distance with every word.
What I dream of and why I hope for things is changing as I get older, but no matter what family is the most important. As friendships come and go and mine always seem to go away, family remains there and I find comfort in that.
More and more I am able to think of people I use to be friends with, and not feel bitter or sour about the loss. I am better ad smarter for having know some people and others who I tried to be friends with were just a waste of my time. At the end of all of these friendships that have gone right I feel more comfortable in my own skin! So in this respect there is s silver lining and light at the end of this tunnle.
# posted by Sassy @ 1:15 PM 
