Friday, April 07, 2006
Missing Conections
Tonight she IMed me again and the conversation started out well enough, then I got mean and nasty. I can not stop thinking of her as a trader. Her need to divorce my cousin makes me think she is not a loyal friend to me. I question everything she has said and done ever.
I resent the time I have invested in being her friend and in caring about her life.
As I sit here reading my blog it is turning into a record of fiendships lost. How very sad and angry I must seem to the world reading my bloggy.
Most people work out who they can be friends with in High School & I had no friends then. So here I am working all of that out now.
I have been thinking and praying about it a great deal. I do not think that my cousins marriage will last, and I do not think my friendship with his wife will last either. Knowing this helps me but it also leaves me in limbo and worried about everything I say or IM to her.
I NEED a friend to call on the phone and talk with and she has been that friend for a few years now. As much as I try to call my Mom and talk to her about that stuff, it is just not the same as having a mate to talk to about life.
As I life and Blog she has IMed me again and confided inme that she is talking to a guy called MedicNorth from her EMT site as she IMs with me. Of all of the nerve does she think I will be happy about this bragging and flanting of hers. I am shocked and upset by these things she is telling me.
Some women just should never get married!
Well I will have to blog about this again when she is not stiring my emotions and getting my dander up.
I resent the time I have invested in being her friend and in caring about her life.
As I sit here reading my blog it is turning into a record of fiendships lost. How very sad and angry I must seem to the world reading my bloggy.
Most people work out who they can be friends with in High School & I had no friends then. So here I am working all of that out now.
I have been thinking and praying about it a great deal. I do not think that my cousins marriage will last, and I do not think my friendship with his wife will last either. Knowing this helps me but it also leaves me in limbo and worried about everything I say or IM to her.
I NEED a friend to call on the phone and talk with and she has been that friend for a few years now. As much as I try to call my Mom and talk to her about that stuff, it is just not the same as having a mate to talk to about life.
As I life and Blog she has IMed me again and confided inme that she is talking to a guy called MedicNorth from her EMT site as she IMs with me. Of all of the nerve does she think I will be happy about this bragging and flanting of hers. I am shocked and upset by these things she is telling me.
Some women just should never get married!
Well I will have to blog about this again when she is not stiring my emotions and getting my dander up.
# posted by Sassy @ 12:28 AM 
