Monday, April 03, 2006
Sharp Words & What Friendship Means
Last night I tried again to talk to my cousin the husband of my former friend. He answered the phone and we had a very short conversation. Then he handed the phone to her. I am not sure if he was trying to patch us up as friends or if he did not want to talk to me? Shortly after she hung up on me. Then this former friend of mine opened a chat box to say hello to me and as it turned out she did not have time to really chat with me! I was in no mood to be at her disposal. I used sharp words and ended the chat. I have been thinking about blocking her from chating with me, but that will require more thought.
Friendship after friendship has ended on me this way. I am growing very weary of ever making friends again. The hardest part this time is that this friend is married into my family. I know at a deeper level this is not a friendship problem it is my problem. As more time passes and this does not get better I become more and more convinced that I am not ment to have good female friends and that my onlie frinds half a wolrd away are the best I can do.
Friendship after friendship has ended on me this way. I am growing very weary of ever making friends again. The hardest part this time is that this friend is married into my family. I know at a deeper level this is not a friendship problem it is my problem. As more time passes and this does not get better I become more and more convinced that I am not ment to have good female friends and that my onlie frinds half a wolrd away are the best I can do.
# posted by Sassy @ 10:01 AM 
