Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Wires Crossed
Well today the object of my confusion opened an IM box to chat with me even though I was set to busy. I gave in and chatted with her. Now her tone is that of, "nothing is wrong", or "there was no problem"!!! Conflict in the intent makes me dizzy. As she tells me everything is alright she confides in me that she is looking for full time work so she has enough money to earn a good living for herself and all three kids too!
I did not really know what to say or why she wanted to talk to me today.
I am just no good at making friends.
Here in the wind I find myself alone a great deal of the time. It is not a good thing when you can have friends beyond numbers online and still feel alone.
I am very centered on what is happening online right now because real life is just to much to deal with and today was a three strikes day!
Strike one AF
Strike two I have brochntis
Strike three my mentaly ill son had a tantrum today. He hit me 38 times, spat in my face, yelled, threw everything he could get his hands on, and pooped his pants.
I can not take much more of my life! I NEED a vacation!
All my wires are crossed, and I have no idea how to fix them.
I did not really know what to say or why she wanted to talk to me today.
I am just no good at making friends.
Here in the wind I find myself alone a great deal of the time. It is not a good thing when you can have friends beyond numbers online and still feel alone.
I am very centered on what is happening online right now because real life is just to much to deal with and today was a three strikes day!
Strike one AF
Strike two I have brochntis
Strike three my mentaly ill son had a tantrum today. He hit me 38 times, spat in my face, yelled, threw everything he could get his hands on, and pooped his pants.
I can not take much more of my life! I NEED a vacation!
All my wires are crossed, and I have no idea how to fix them.
# posted by Sassy @ 9:22 PM 
