Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Thoughts On Healing Sincerely
Well there is news to share and today I am awake enought to update my dear blog regarding all of it.
My Mom drove out (500+ miles) to help me and my family on the 15th. I did not understand just how much I missed her until she was here. It made me happy just having her here with me and my family. Lets just say I missed her so very much that her cooking tastes good! Even after my Mom arrived I considered not having the surgery. All of that early detection crap in the media creats a scary place where you feel trapped by the events your living through, and good choices are less likely to be made by women who feel rushed and scared to death of cancer and dieing.
I ended up having the surgical biopsy on the 16th. My husband took me to the hospital at 6am and I was in surgery by 8am, I awoke in recovery at 11am. I was not able to eat for hours and hours and I felt tired and in great pain. I got home nearly 13 hours later feeling totaly terrible.
I have been doing a great deal of sleeping resting and sitting very still.
I went to the doctors office on the 19th and they took the pressure dressing off and that made me feel sick and terrible all over again. I think that expecting to have my questions answered and to be taken care of is not asking to much. I now feel terribly sorry for all of the women in Kansas who have gone through what I am going through and have been treated the way I am being treated! Worst of all I am still waiting for the biopsy results! On the 22nd I went to the followup at the doctors office where I started out on this painfull journey, it did me some good to hear that I am healing and that the surgeon did a good job. I was silghtly comforted to learn that after a great deal of time to heal there should be little or no scaring. I hope that assesment is right because the scar from the surgery looks horrible and disfiguring right now.
Why is it taking them so long to tell me if I have some kind of breast cancer or not? Some people say no news is good news, but I want a clear answer.
Here I sit now wishing that I had never gone to the docotor about this in the first place. Those stupid self breast exams are not really of much use because so few women know what they are looking for! Mamograms SUCK, they hurt and they do not do much good because in most cases they have to be sent hundreds of miles away to be "read" and even then all they suggest is that more testing should be done! There are not enough Breast Surgeons and getting a second opnion is terrible hard in this part of the counrty.
Who really cares about AIDS in Africa when there are women here in America who can not get stright answers or emotionaly envolved medical care?
Where are the support groups for the women who have been rushed in to a surgical biopsy?
Where are the web sites explaining that your important and you will have a long journey to recovery even if your not a cancer patient?
Why do we act like people who do have cancer are a better class of person than the rest of the world at large?
Why have I not yet learned how my tests turned out?
Well that is the situation questions and answers that I am living with right now!
My Mom drove out (500+ miles) to help me and my family on the 15th. I did not understand just how much I missed her until she was here. It made me happy just having her here with me and my family. Lets just say I missed her so very much that her cooking tastes good! Even after my Mom arrived I considered not having the surgery. All of that early detection crap in the media creats a scary place where you feel trapped by the events your living through, and good choices are less likely to be made by women who feel rushed and scared to death of cancer and dieing.
I ended up having the surgical biopsy on the 16th. My husband took me to the hospital at 6am and I was in surgery by 8am, I awoke in recovery at 11am. I was not able to eat for hours and hours and I felt tired and in great pain. I got home nearly 13 hours later feeling totaly terrible.
I have been doing a great deal of sleeping resting and sitting very still.
I went to the doctors office on the 19th and they took the pressure dressing off and that made me feel sick and terrible all over again. I think that expecting to have my questions answered and to be taken care of is not asking to much. I now feel terribly sorry for all of the women in Kansas who have gone through what I am going through and have been treated the way I am being treated! Worst of all I am still waiting for the biopsy results! On the 22nd I went to the followup at the doctors office where I started out on this painfull journey, it did me some good to hear that I am healing and that the surgeon did a good job. I was silghtly comforted to learn that after a great deal of time to heal there should be little or no scaring. I hope that assesment is right because the scar from the surgery looks horrible and disfiguring right now.
Why is it taking them so long to tell me if I have some kind of breast cancer or not? Some people say no news is good news, but I want a clear answer.
Here I sit now wishing that I had never gone to the docotor about this in the first place. Those stupid self breast exams are not really of much use because so few women know what they are looking for! Mamograms SUCK, they hurt and they do not do much good because in most cases they have to be sent hundreds of miles away to be "read" and even then all they suggest is that more testing should be done! There are not enough Breast Surgeons and getting a second opnion is terrible hard in this part of the counrty.
Who really cares about AIDS in Africa when there are women here in America who can not get stright answers or emotionaly envolved medical care?
Where are the support groups for the women who have been rushed in to a surgical biopsy?
Where are the web sites explaining that your important and you will have a long journey to recovery even if your not a cancer patient?
Why do we act like people who do have cancer are a better class of person than the rest of the world at large?
Why have I not yet learned how my tests turned out?
Well that is the situation questions and answers that I am living with right now!
# posted by Sassy @ 12:44 PM 
