Monday, June 26, 2006
Days Come And Go
I am left wondering what has happened that I ended up living where I am going through what life has shown to me. Where in the past did I make the choice or choices that lead me here? Not that I or anyone else will ever know the answers.
To pass the time I have been working with beads and making simple bits of jewelry, it amazes me how much money one can invest into simple glass beads and the supplies to build necklaces and bracelets. If I have to be sitting still at least this gives me something to do other than just watching TV or taking up all of the time on the computer.
I nearly posted again on the site where they were so rude to me but the one toxic person who hurt me the most was still there so I only answered a warning in my PM box and did not post anything yet again. It was terribly odd to be called a lurker where I have nearly 4000 posts to MY credit! I wish that I could return there and be an active member again. I still feel rotton about inviting the wolf intothe fold there. I am sure that she will strike out at them as she has at me.
Lesson learned for me NEVER AGAIN will I invite anyone from my real life to where I enjoy being online. Even when sites claim they need members, I am NOT going to risk such a mess every again. Being able to log on and enjoy my online friends is to important to me to ever risk it again. I may not be a good judge of people but I can be smarter about the information I share.
I am now under the care of a Chiropractic Doctor who has done wonders for me in a very short time. I am very glad that I have weeks and weeks of treatment ahead of me too. Today I nearly fell asleep there. It has made me wonder how much I am really able to relax and enjoy my life? How much I feel in controll of how I live my life and how I will take care of myself in the years ahead of me.
Of all of the things i want peace in my own heart seems to be the hardest to find.
To pass the time I have been working with beads and making simple bits of jewelry, it amazes me how much money one can invest into simple glass beads and the supplies to build necklaces and bracelets. If I have to be sitting still at least this gives me something to do other than just watching TV or taking up all of the time on the computer.
I nearly posted again on the site where they were so rude to me but the one toxic person who hurt me the most was still there so I only answered a warning in my PM box and did not post anything yet again. It was terribly odd to be called a lurker where I have nearly 4000 posts to MY credit! I wish that I could return there and be an active member again. I still feel rotton about inviting the wolf intothe fold there. I am sure that she will strike out at them as she has at me.
Lesson learned for me NEVER AGAIN will I invite anyone from my real life to where I enjoy being online. Even when sites claim they need members, I am NOT going to risk such a mess every again. Being able to log on and enjoy my online friends is to important to me to ever risk it again. I may not be a good judge of people but I can be smarter about the information I share.
I am now under the care of a Chiropractic Doctor who has done wonders for me in a very short time. I am very glad that I have weeks and weeks of treatment ahead of me too. Today I nearly fell asleep there. It has made me wonder how much I am really able to relax and enjoy my life? How much I feel in controll of how I live my life and how I will take care of myself in the years ahead of me.
Of all of the things i want peace in my own heart seems to be the hardest to find.
# posted by Sassy @ 12:07 PM 
