Thursday, September 21, 2006
Time Passes
My husband had to have a medical procedure done, and I was not allowed to leave the office waist he was being seen to. It was enough to make me very angry and very snarkey. To be made to sit in the offices ugly want to be Andrew Loyd Webber ish lobby with soap operas blaring away at me from the TV mounted high on the wall.
I wanted to go and to get things done and then return and pick him up when he was finished. Sitting there made the waiting that much harder.
I felt so helpless when I saw him. The swelling, the bleeding, the throwing up was all to much for me. After we left the surgery clinic I had to take him to the hospital to get an x-ray taken. He got very sick there and he does not even remember what happened during that time. I did manage to get him back in my car and drive him home with out much other stress or worry. He does not remember picking up our children or arriving home.
I wish he could forget the pain he is in now. I wish I could be more of a help to him. There I go wishing yet again.
Well I have wondered if the people who read my blog do so because they see it as a chance to hear the thoughts that rattle around in my head. My stream of thought style of blogging is honest and open in a way most other try to avoid. I type what I think and what I feel. My life has its ups and its downs and I speak my mind and let my heart lead no matter what.
I do not do well with long term friendships. I am not a good judge of people or their charter, so I leave my self open to getting hurt more than most.
I became a parent at 19, so much of what I see in the world I see from that 19 year old American female point of view even though that betrays the years I have to my credit. Well no matter how old you think I am when and if you read my blog be sure to read and follow my rules!
# posted by Sassy @ 9:47 PM 
